I felt so horrible yesterday and then early this morning too. Im not sure if I ate something funky or what. I’ve never actually had the 24 hour flu before, so I doubt that was it. Mostly because I always get the week long flu. None of this feeling better in the morning stuff for me. I really can’t think of what I ate, but I felt so icky. Feeling nauseated takes me right back to the beginning of both of my pregnancies. I love my girls, but I really don’t think I could hack being prego again. My body might never recover. I’m so done with hospitals too.

Ooh yeah. Emily is back to being potty trained through the whole day! YAY! she was doing great, but then we had a baby and moved to Kamloops. I suppose its perfectly normal for her to feel a bit overwhelmed and forget to do things like pee in the potty. I love that we are making progress again. I sooo did not want 2 in diapers at the same time. Makes the work double!

Avery is 2 months old this week and when we went to weigh her today we were pleasantly surprised. She’s 9lbs 0.1oz! All that from 5lbs 14oz just over 2 months ago. We are all in amazement. She is growing very well. I’m not looking forward to her shots next week though.

Wow this blog is all over the place. I guess thats how my brain feels today. All over. Like right now this is where my thinking is: I have to get some laundry done, I should finish the dishes, Emily needs a bath, I never get to play guitar anymore, I think I’ll make a smoothy, why does my webcam turn everything red, Avery is so cute when she’s sleeping, I wonder when my mail will get here, I need a haircut…and so on and so on. That’s just an average few minutes worth of thoughts.

Today at the drop in we did a self-care quiz with a lady from mental health. Apparently I need counseling. I didn’t score very well on the quiz. I don’t really think I’m rotten at taking care of me, but I guess I am. There were some categories that were ok if you weren’t good at, but others had stars beside them. The stars meant that I needed to get help. Nice. Now I’m a psycho too. I don’t know any Moms who take amazing care of themselves with a new baby. When baby has to eat, Mom has to wait. that’s just how it is. I know I shouldnt think that selfcare is selfish, but I suppose I think it is. Maybe I don’t think its selfish in my head, but when I watch how I prioritize my day, I realize that selfcare ends up last on the list. With the exception of blogging and a cup of coffee, Im pretty bad at doing things for me. I didn’t even blog very much for a long time because it was too low on the totem pole. Hey, maybe thats why I don’t bother to actually do my hair. Anyways, I’ll have to spend sometime thinking of things I can do to take care of me. maybe later…haha