Tackling PPD

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Avery is going to wake up in a couple minutes, so I’m typing fast. Poor little muffin gets her shots today. I know there are alot of people against immunizations, but I for one, am just fine with them. Yes there are all kinds of things in there that might cause other problems, but today’s kids don’t die of the same diseases that they did a generation ago. so then, today is shots day.

I get to talk to my health nurse about my appointment with Mental Health. YAY for feeling like crap at THAT meeting. I don’t think I blogged about that yet. I know I’m having Post Partum Depression again, so I went to talk to the lady at Mental health. I know I’m not going to beat this very fast if I don’t get help. So I sit down at this meeting and the Lady makes me feel like I’m in the principal’s office. She is basically tells me that I can take drugs if I want to, or I could get counseling if I want to, but they probably wont help. Then she says I new to get better to get better. Bad logic? Yeah! So I left and made my Mom take me for a screamer! Now thats therapy!

Anyways, here I am a couple weeks later feeling a bit better about things, but not looking forward to the “How did your appointment go?” question. I suppose at the same time, the thought that nothing will work for me has made me step up to the plate a bit and deal with the things I can deal with. I know I need to take care of my health in more was than just mentally. I’ve been trying to find ways to fit in time for mental, spiritual, physical, and emotional health.

I’ve made it to spin class two weeks in a row. I started taking the Generations discipleship part-time school. I’m trying to find time to just sit and read a book, so I started the Capricious Monolith Book Club (join it!). and I’m using a Fake Moleskine, “Getting Things Done” system to keep track of the things in my head so I stop forgetting everything.

So this has been a better week. Plus I’m looking forward to next week! Kayaking on Monday and then heading to Loon Lake on Tuesday for our Anniversary week! YAY!

Avery is waking up, so I’d better start my day!

Photo August

Emily runs to her Daddy and with a very frustrated tone she says “I’ve tried this water and that water and my pool, but Jesus won’t walk on them!”

IMG_6499IMG_6518IMG_6531We were going to take the plastic Jesus away, but it kinda helps us understand how Emily thinks about God, what she learns at Sunday school and what things really need to be better explained to her like how Jesus isn’t a toy. I’m hoping I’m not being sacrilegious.

I’ve decided to follow the Informal Matriarchs lead and chillax for August, but I’m going to do it a bit different. I’m starting by not updating my twitter or facebook all the time. As for my blog I think I’m going to blog once in a while, but mostly photoblog unless Em does something really funny. Speaking of funny, I was carrying Avery in the Snugli and pushing Em in the Stroller and a Lady walked by us and said: “Oh, you’re carrying a baby, I just thought you had really big Boobs!” Why you would say that, I don’t know…

I’m pretty sure I’m having Post Partum Depression again after having Avery. I’m sure I did after Emily too, so if I blog about anything I might blog about that. I think blogging about what stuff you are going through is healthy to help you understand yourself and maybe encourage someone else. So if you see me, tell me it ok to relax and just enjoy my girls and my summer without cramming it full of things that need to be done. I’m doing my best not to jump right into everything that I used to do. When I get too busy I get stressed and anxious and I forget to just be. I know I don’t have enough patience for Emily when I’m like that either. The last few days have been alot better. I didn’t think I had time to go to Loon Lake, but I booked it and went anyways, and it was fantastic for me to relax and let go of the day to day stuff. Then when I got home I decided to make a conscious effort to slow my life down and find ways to meet my needs emotionally, spiritually, and physically. So now I start every morning with a shower and take 10 minutes to get my head in the right space before taking care of my tiny tots. I think that’s helping alot! Anyways. AV is waking up and none to happy, so I’d better go get her.

Oh! and I get to meat Prime Minister Stephen Harper next week at a BBQ! Pretty stoked for that!