Tackling PPD
September 11, 2009 by CourtenayMomma
Filed under Blog, Thoughts
Avery is going to wake up in a couple minutes, so I’m typing fast. Poor little muffin gets her shots today. I know there are alot of people against immunizations, but I for one, am just fine with them. Yes there are all kinds of things in there that might cause other problems, but today’s kids don’t die of the same diseases that they did a generation ago. so then, today is shots day.
I get to talk to my health nurse about my appointment with Mental Health. YAY for feeling like crap at THAT meeting. I don’t think I blogged about that yet. I know I’m having Post Partum Depression again, so I went to talk to the lady at Mental health. I know I’m not going to beat this very fast if I don’t get help. So I sit down at this meeting and the Lady makes me feel like I’m in the principal’s office. She is basically tells me that I can take drugs if I want to, or I could get counseling if I want to, but they probably wont help. Then she says I new to get better to get better. Bad logic? Yeah! So I left and made my Mom take me for a screamer! Now thats therapy!
Anyways, here I am a couple weeks later feeling a bit better about things, but not looking forward to the “How did your appointment go?” question. I suppose at the same time, the thought that nothing will work for me has made me step up to the plate a bit and deal with the things I can deal with. I know I need to take care of my health in more was than just mentally. I’ve been trying to find ways to fit in time for mental, spiritual, physical, and emotional health.
I’ve made it to spin class two weeks in a row. I started taking the Generations discipleship part-time school. I’m trying to find time to just sit and read a book, so I started the Capricious Monolith Book Club (join it!). and I’m using a Fake Moleskine, “Getting Things Done” system to keep track of the things in my head so I stop forgetting everything.
So this has been a better week. Plus I’m looking forward to next week! Kayaking on Monday and then heading to Loon Lake on Tuesday for our Anniversary week! YAY!
Avery is waking up, so I’d better start my day!
The mental health lady sounds like a weirdo. She should just stop.
Love ya.
I think I had the same lady when I went for my appointment after having Becca. She made me feel super crummy and I never went back. I did the meds thing for a year and that helped a lot. Kind of cleared the fog away so I could function better – and then I figured out different coping skills that helped me hugely once I got off the meds. I think if I’d known those things ahead of time I wouldn’t have needed the meds at all. Anyway, I think I’ve been where you are (every woman’s experience is individual though), so if you ever want to chat about it just drop me a line, okay?
Thanks! I think that the more I talk about what I’m going through, the more women i find have gone through the same things. I think we all need to support each other through things like PPD or miscarriages. Its the best way to avoid feeling isolated.
When the health nurse asked me if I was having any PPD symptoms I said “no, i cry a lot and feel really lonely and i can’t remember anything, but i’m fine.” Denial is a beautiful thing
My sisters and I will help you toilet paper that nurse’s house next time we’re up. I hope things are working out since this blog was written! Gosh i’m behind on my blog reading. xo