Kick my own butt.

I’m feeling like a bit of a defeatist today. I’m trying to figure out whose will power I was borrowing for the first two months of the kick my butt weight loss thing. Cause obviously I had to take it back. I’m doing ok, but Id really like to keep kicking my butt. Now is when I cross the line from doing ok, to doing awesome. Something Morgan said that I’m trying to keep in mind “This part of your race will only be won by self talk”. I’m finding this part of the journey the hardest. I keep wishing someone else would do this for me. Like when you are at the theatre in the best part of the movie and suddenly you have to pee really really bad. Thats when you wish someone else would go for you. Ok so back to motto one.”I have to do what I should do before I do what I want to do.” Motto two. “My body is not a trash can.” I need to stop treating my body like my tastes buds are the rulers and only they matter.  There. I think I just needed a little pep talk. Maybe I ll print some awful pictures of me and stick them on the fridge so I can see how far I’ve come.

I don’t like to record what I eat. I find it tiresome, but I think I need to start doing that again. I had a free version of FitDay online and I used to use that, but then I bought the more advanced version, and it was way more work to keep it updated. Maybe Ill start the freebie again. Recording what I eat keeps me oh-so-accountable to eating great. I don’t like to write down bad stuff so I don’t eat it. Alright enough “maybes”. I’m just gonna get my act together.

Starting now! Emily is waking up so I’m going to go make her a superb dinner and then I’m going to remember that I deserve a superb dinner too and make it! AND I’m going to drink a butt load of water! AND we are gonna go for a walk! so there.

No pics today. First day without em. Cant be too predictable.